Jess

2010-09-24T22:11:00.001+08:00

MOVED :D :D :D(kind of =/ )

http://takeme-awayy.tumblr.com

but i'm still keeping this blog :D

2010-07-18T00:32:00.002+08:00

i don't like today :O

1stly,it's a 17th.

2ndly,it rained

3rdly,the school's flooded

4thly,the school's flooded due to the rain

5thly,bazaar continues even if the school's flooded

6thly,bella dragged the drummer guy to me

7thly,i actually talked to that guy

8thly,i felt stupid

9thly,a lot of people were at the bazaar

10thly,i walked around the school for nearly 100 times

11thly,i tried to find someone but couldn't find

12thly,after looking for like,6 hours,i realised that that person is not coming

13thly,i can't do wat i wanted

14thly,im freaking tired.

15thly,my arms got disfigured cos of volleyball again

16thly,im still tired.

17thly,i cried :(

18thly,i lost my itouch

19thly,i had to go for NYCO concert to support cin

20thlyi had to borrow christy's jeans

21thly,i can fit into a size 24

22thly,we saw ting's classmate,after like 5 yrs.

23rdly,her classmate dropped his flower n i had to bend down n pick it up

24thly,the CO concert was great

25thly,i fell asleep majority of the time

26thly,i wasted $12 to sleep

27thly,im still upset about my itouch

28thly,i want iphone 4 :(

29thly,i don't know when i can get it

30thly,i can't live without my beloved itouch

31stly,im still tired

32ndly,im using the com

33rdlyn,i want to sleep.

yep. thats basically wat happened today.

just an update.

i've got full marks for both the sch's chi oral & amath test!!! :D :D :D

YES MAN! haha way to go yo~!

& i love FG! haha! LOL!

i should have taken elit lah.

hmph.

whee! :D

zoee taught me`i go crazy because of you`dance

n weishan taught me run devil run

happy happy happy! xD

gahhhh.im so tired now ><"

BYIIEEE!

2010-07-04T01:02:00.003+08:00

-03/07/10-

Saturday

today is the final performance of the syf opening ceremony.

great (Y)

wearing jackets with red flowers,eggy gloves while holding cloths n having dustbins on our heads doesn't seem like a bad idea after all.

im so going to miss this day.of course minus the chicken rice part.

we had so much fun

waving cloths,throwing stuff all over the place.screaming at the top of our lungs.

oh.hooking up with primary school kids.best.haha!

and RV's performance!!!

haha.

♥ sherrie,meihui,weishan,keziah,bella & denise !!!

-today-

slept for most of today.

went for movie with ting jus now

watched eclipse.

best movie up till now!

totally squealed 90% of the movie! xD

nice nice nice! highly recommend this movie.

hm.new moon sucked though.

haha.at least this movie didnt disappoint me.

vampire diaries is... still better i guess?

but jacob is a lot better looking than damon n stefan.

c'mon it's taylor lautner :D

jacob's ` admit it,im hotter than u` owned edward in the face man.

& `im not gonna kiss u,unless u ask for it` to bella.

which brings me to my next point.

is it really possible to have a platonic friendship?

anyway

camped at starbucks with ting after the movie.

talked about life.as usual.

i can relate to her.even though im not as smart.

i can feel the kind of pressure n stress she's facing even though i know its a lot more than wat i am facing.

results is all that matters isn't it?

she said that she hope the world will end in 2012.

so that she don't have to deal with decisions anymore.

but i told her that i wouldn't want that to happen cos my life has yet to start.

it sucks to grow up.

life just gets more n more complicated.

n u have to make decisions that u might regret.

thats y we never want to make mistakes.

because it takes time to get back on the right track.

i need space.i need to breath.i need a life.

this place feels like a cage to me.

i want to be able to wake up n feel alive & believe that the day is going to be great.

i want to go to a place where that i can see the beauty of nature instead of buildings cramped together.

sigh.what a stupid desire of mine.

2010-06-29T22:04:00.013+08:00

im just going to upload some pics from the past few days.

hmm.perhaps some descriptions ?

life is getting boring recently.

can't seem to wake up everyday in the morning.

it feels as though im dead.

then somehow my alarm clock ring.

and i realise jesslyn exists.

wat a good thing huh.

anyway.my dreams doesn't really make sense.

so me being my usual self went to find my good friend name google to find theories on why we dream etc.

okay.so here's the theories i've gathered.

Theory #1
The Evolutionary Theory: We Dream to Practice Responses to Threatening Situations

Theory #2
Dreams Create Wisdom

Theory #3
Dreaming is Like Defragmenting Your Hard Drive

Theory #4
Dreams Are Like Psychotherapy

Theory #5
The Absence of Theory

got the informations from http://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/the-literary-mind/200911/why-do-we-dream

other websites r too chim for my pea-sized brain to understand.

im curious.

can someone tell me y am i dreaming of strangers ???

oh.im going to miss so many lessons this week.

cos of some...syf opening thing...

._.

this is sad.

i won't be able to catch up.

and im gonna die.

oh no.

im getting paranoid again.

today measured our height & weight.

i have no idea if the machine they use is accurate.

buuuuuuuuut im 170cm n 51kg :D

after 3 years.

after 3 freaking long years.

my hormones finally start to work again!

yay?

tmr's going to be a long day.

mr ek says that dinner is provided.

i wonder wat the school will get for us.

some $1 chicken rice again?!

they should treat us better.

i want food :(

i wish i could photosynthesis.

i want to reborn into a plant in my next life.

ha.jk.

just don't let me be a cockroach.

i can scare myself to death.

oh and choir blog.

nobody is telling me the password.

nobody is telling me wat im suppose to post.

wat? want me to hack?

and post wat?

`hi choir! here r some funny videos to brighten up ur day!`

.........

it rained this morning.

the weather is screwed.

earth is screwed.

and we r screwed.

why r we having a bazaar with so many constructions going on.

i feel so random today.

oh wait.

i thought i was just suppose to upload pics?

y am i blabbing nonsense here.

oh yay.my hands r not listening to my brain.

woohoo.

super funny mass convo with choir peeps that made me nearly died of laughin.

Denise: ROFLROFLROFLROFLROFL

Jesslyn: where's the girl with no ezlink card

Denise: ROFLROFLROFL

Denise: Sleep alr

Jesslyn:SLEEP SO EARLY?!

-clara added to convo-

Denise: ROFL

Clara: so how's the meeting lols

Meihui: no avail xD

Meihui: wow chim english!

Denise: ROLFORLFORLFORFLROFLROFLROFL

Meihui: wah denise ltr you injure yourself

Meihui: keep rolling on the floor

LOL x 10000000000000000000000

ok time for pics. im boring i know ._.

-first day of school

1-2am around there at starbucks with zann after work

english proj @ angyuting's hse & toy story 3 with wongmin! ^^

final pic of me.i was really bored =/

2010-06-22T22:18:00.003+08:00

hello world! :D
oh no D: school is starting in 5 days!!!
MY HOMEWORKS!!!
i neh bring home my stuff!
n you evil peeps don't even feel a tiny bit of sympathy towards me.*sob sob*
im so nervous n guilty abt homeworks D:
stupid stupid me neh bring home :(
i even dream abt homework.
homeworks r haunting me O.O

anywayyyyyyyyyyyy~
cchms fail man.
angyuting say there's suppose to be hcl remedial from mon- thurs.
in the end nobody go,cos nobody know!
EPIC FAIL. LOL!
BUT! there's remedial tmr.whee!
i can bring home my stuff!!
yay yay yay!!! ^^
but no time do oso :(
im so stupid n slow :(
do one math qns spend dunno how long :(
:(

gahhhh~~
y holidays pass by so fast D:
i need another 4 weeks! roar! D:
i forget everything alr luh.im so dead :(
im gonna flunk everything when sch reopen :(
noooooooooooooooooooo~~~~!!!! T^T
life's so unfair T^T

haha.keizah.

let's rot together in one corner xD

2010-06-12T22:10:00.002+08:00

lol saw this random survey online.shall do it since im bored.hahahha :D :D :D

im suppose to bold those that r applicable to me ._.

the oldest child.
the middle child.
the youngest child.
an only child.
sick a lot.
are planning on moving.
are looking for a job.
sleepy.
stupid.
extremely smart.
lonely.
loved.
smiling.
crying.
watching tv.
listening to music.
a hypochondriac.
loving.
happy.
upset.
anticipating something.
in love with someone.
eating.
not wearing underwear.
wearing underwear.
supposed to be working on something else.
short.
average.
tall.
super tall.
wearing clothes.
wearing pajamas.
not wearing anything.

YOU:

feel sad a lot.
feel happy a lot.
hate Lady Gaga.
never get sick.
plan on watching a bunch of movies this weekend.
don't act your age.
act older than most people your age do.
smoke a lot.
think smoking is john teshing nasty.
think drugs are stupid.
love doing drugs.
love mashed potatoes.
drop your cell all the time.
don't listen to music a lot.
listen to music every chance you get.
recycle.
don't recycle.
litter a lot.
hate school.
love school.
believe that the world is going to end in 2012.
think that's bullmini cooper.
laugh a lot.
joke around with people.
wear ties.
watch a lot of tv shows.
wish you had more time in the day.
love looking at paintings.

YOU HAVE:

never moved.
fallen asleep in a class.
quit a job.
a ton of friends.
written a poem. (ish)
written a story/novel.
written a song.
played the lottery.
gotten drunk this past weekend.
more than a couple favorite bands.
a migraine.
a cold.
a stomachache.
a brother.
a sister.
more than one sibling.
a lot of pajama pants.
only one pair of pajama pants.
a bed.
fallen down a few stairs.
fallen down a few stairs in front of people.
been made fun of all your life.
made fun of people growing up.
have never been to the other side of the country that you live in.
a fireplace in your house.
already had your birthday this year.
yet to have your birthday this year.
felt old.
felt young.
napped today.
slept through something important.
slept a lot but still felt tired.
hardly slept and felt wide awake.

RANDOM:

I am an Aquarius.
I am a Capricorn.
I am a Gemini.
I am a Sagittarius.
I am a Cancer.
I am an Aries.
I am a Taurus.
I am a Scorpio.
I am a Pisces.
I am a Leo.
I am a Virgo.
I am a Libra.
I feel like no one listens to me.
I never get enough sleep.
I am a dork.
I always stay up too late.
I have never had a boyfriend.
I cannot stand at least one genre of music.
I read a lot.
I nap a lot.
I have a lot more books than anyone else I know.
I think I have carpal tunnel.
I have a lot of medical problems.
I get bored a lot.
I love making surveys.
Bolding surveys are the best kind of surveys.
I wish I could lose a lot of weight right away.
I have asthma.
I have a thyroid problem.
I have scoliosis.
I have a mini cooperton of things wrong with me.
I wear glasses.
I wear contacts.
I have a cat.
I swear way too much.
I go to church every Sunday.
Church is stupid.
I don't believe in god.
I believe in god.
I have a dog.
I own a lot of wallets.
I love when my pet cuddles with me.
I have a few favorite actors and actresses.
I like to walk.
People piss me off easily.
I feel worthless sometimes.
Candles give me headaches sometimes.
I like Twilight.
I hate Twilight.
I am reading more than one book right now.
I keep my mouth shut a lot.
I never get as much sleep as I want to.

You Have:

screamed at an inanimate object for 'hurting you.'

ran into a glass/screen door
jumped out of a moving vehicle.
thought of something funny and laughed, and then people gave you weird looks.
run into a tree/bush.
You know that it IS possible to lick your elbow.
You just tried to lick your elbow.
You never knew that the Alphabet and Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star had the same melody.
You just sang them to make sure.
You have tripped on your own feet and fallen.
You have choked on your own spit.
You type with three fingers or less.
You have accidentally caught something on fire.
You tried to drink out of a straw, but it went into your nose.
You have caught yourself drooling.
You have fallen asleep in class.
Sometimes you just can't stop thinking.
Sometimes when you are telling a story you forget what you are talking about.
People often shake their heads and walk away from you.
You are often told to use your 'inside voice.'
You use your fingers to do simple math.
You have eaten a bug accidentally.
You are doing this when you should be doing something more important.
You have put your clothes on backwards or inside out, and didn't realize it.
You've looked all over for something and realized it was in your hand/pocket the whole time.
e.g. picks, cards, pens, phones, money, keys etc.
You have posted bulletins because you are scared that what they say will happen if you don't.
You break a lot of things.
You tilt your head when you're confused.
You have fallen out of your chair before.
When you're lying in bed, you try to find pictures in the texture on the ceiling.
The word "um" is used frequently.
You don't know what "um" means.
You say "what" and "huh" a lot.

in 2009 you:

Did something you said you would never do.
Payed for someone who said they would pay you back but never did.
Lied about where you were.
Discovered a new musician.
Made something for a friend.
Got a new phone.
Got a new iPod/Zune/Mp3 player.
Watched three or more episodes of Saturday Night Live.
Made fun of someone.
Flew on a plane for the first time.
Spoke in front of 15 people or more.
Met someone in real life that you originally met online.
Done something illegal.
Did your siblings chores for money.
Stayed up all night thinking about the worst thing that could possibly happen to later find out that you worried for nothing.
Hurt somebody you didn’t mean to hurt.
Hugged your mom or dad.
Baked a cake.
Made a new friend.
Lost an old friend.
Changed your views on society.
Laughed at something that wasn’t funny.
Got upset over something that wasn’t a big deal.
Had a horrible birthday.
Got a facebook.
Deleted your myspace.
Cried because you missed old times.
Cleaned your room.
Have a new found appreciation for someone you never expected to.
Told someone you love them.
Told someone you hate them.
Screwed something up but didn’t mean to.
Received a gift.
Gave a gift.
Read a book that wasn’t for school.
Ate a lollipop.
Threw away something by accident.
Smoked a cigarette.
Ran a mile.
Switched schools.
Aced a test.
Wished you were in the past.
Got scared about the future.
Got yelled at by your parents.

Got hurt by someone whom you love/loved
Lost a family member.
Saw an old friend.
Went to church/synagogue.
Hugged a stuffed animal.
Said you’re going to make next year better

2010-06-05T17:04:00.004+08:00

im down with fever :(
temperature went up to 39 degrees :(
yesterday i thought i only head pain. so i still went.
then i realise i got fever cos i felt daaaamn...err dizzy n i was burning.
i thought it was no big deal so i persevered till 3am + WHEN ITS INITIALLY 1PM !!!
reached home at around 4am,took temperature n it was 37.8 degrees.
morning woke up went to see doc.thats when my temperature shot up to 39 =.=
i was given quite a lot of medicine =.=
i hate medicines.roar.

:(
i feel so uncomfortable !!!
my throat hurts like hell i can't even talk properly with my usual voice :(
i miss my voice :(
n my whole body is aching :(
im so sad T~T
i dun wan to eat medicine n drink herbal tea :( :( :(

2010-06-03T22:19:00.002+08:00

today is boring n lame.

nothing happened.

rotted at home after choir.

so i started watching the vampire diaries.

AND ITS VELLY VELLY NICE !!!!!!!!!!! :D :D :D

too bad i can't watch on my com =.=

theres no application for mac.

when can they let me use their com ............. :(

haiz.nvms.

tmr will be another long day.going off at 7am n probably reaching home at 1am?

i need some moral support :(

2010-06-02T21:56:00.002+08:00

long day today!
had choir prac in the morning n choir syf opening rehearsal in the afternoon.
whole thing ended at 5pm
n we had a lecture by mr loh =.=
ahhh.hav to write reflections
............

anyways,
i was kind of pissed during the syf opening rehearsal thing.
the women keep picking on the 7 of us.
whatever we do is wrong n she always make comments sounding damn sacarstically followed by rolling her eyes at us.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
getting on my nerves man.
but it was fun lah.hahah throughout the whole thing we keep laughing.
the steps r funny :D hahaha.

at night had dinner with keziah n weishan at tampines.
i made that decision cos we saw the creepy stalker flyer guy at paya lebar.
the scary thing is.i have been approached by him twice in 2 different place before.
=.= for the same stupid thing.
weishan got approached too.
omggg....
i feel like reporting to the police._.
this kind of person go around everywhere to bluff innocent little young girls like me ^^
haha nvms.
heh.
tmr n friday hv choir too :D
friday we're going to cedar girls for rehearsal!

yay yay yay.
i feel so energetic today! after a long day of choir i went straight to the gym n run like hell =.=
the more i run the happier i get.
gahh my brain cells got screwed up again.
but who cares.

im happy :D

2010-06-01T23:03:00.001+08:00

If a picture paints a thousand words,
Then why can't I paint you?
The words will never show the you I've come to know.
If a face could launch a thousand ships,
Then where am I to go?
There's no one home but you,
You're all that's left me too.
And when my love for life is running dry,
You come and pour yourself on me.

If a man could be two places at one time,
I'd be with you.
Tomorrow and today, beside you all the way.
If the world should stop revolving spinning slowly down to die,
I'd spend the end with you.
And when the world was through,
Then one by one the stars would all go out,
Then you and I would simply fly away

a very nice song that we learn in choir today !!!!!!!!!

If by bread :D

2010-05-31T22:53:00.007+08:00

sometimes i feel that everything is fated.
especially today.
how do u expect urself to see someone at a randomly place just like that?
we wouldn't see each other if it had been 5 secs more.
also,if it wasn't due to the change of plans.this coincidence will never happen.
n it will not confuse me further in the confusion state that im in.
i was surprised.or rather shocked.
but i was fine.
i did not breakdown like how i used to.
it was just for around 10 minutes my thoughts got screwed up.
i can't think.
all i know was that im confused about what im confused about.
even up till now im still confused.
ARGH,
fine whatever.i will end it nice n clean.
zzzzz =.=

ANYWAYS!
went out for the whole entire day again!
HAHA.a funny n random thing to share.
i was walking with jingzhi then this guy suddenly tell me lend him my hand.
then i was like o.O!?
then he keep repeating`your hand your hand`
so i blur blur look at my hand.
he took my hand n suddenly go basin n wash while saying`singapore's water is cold`
after washing he go take some weird thing saying its seasalt n put on my hand.
then he began rubbing n rubbing.
IT WAS DAAMN TICKLISH, n i hav no idea wat was going on.
i keep laughing n laughin until that guy tells me how good that product is.
so i realise that he was trying to promote a product.
then i was like erm no need alr i need to go.
LOL!
random.jingzhi beside me laugh like dunno wat liddat =.= zzzzz
lalala.
time for pics :D spam spam spam.hehe.

2010-05-30T22:24:00.003+08:00

abandoned my blog for such a long time.
teehee.
i shall start blogging again :D
so tired these few days.
had choir practice~
n oh yaaaaahhh
end of year we're probably going to hongkong disneyland for competition.
probably only.
but i dunno if i should go.
should i? should i not?
ahhhh i oso dunno ._.
cos i've gt plans.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzz =.=

anyways,today went out for the whole entire day.
morning went to hv lunch with my family.(after for like ages =.=)
my mum got me this superrrrrrrrrrr bitter herbal tea n forced me to finish it.
its damn bitter.
very very very very very bitter.
words can't express how bitter it was.
omg.
worst nightmare ever ._.
then afternoon went out with jingzhi.
until quite late at night.
shop until... =.=
zzzzzzzz

tiring but ok lah.
dun hav the YAY feeling leh D:
haha.
today she was telling me abt the day in korea which we got separated.
HAAHAHHAHA!!!
we both sad lah.
i hv to go back alone at 2am + ? with drunkards around.
morning she spent super long trying to find me.
:D :D :D :D :D :D :D
AHHHH I MISS THOSE DAYYYYYSSS !!!
I WANNA GO BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAACCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!
T~T *sniff sniff*

hahaha
i think next week we're having 6on'07 gathering.
YAYYYY!!!! :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D
best class ever ! hehe.
AND CLASS CHALET IS COMING.
WOOTS!!
NO NEED TO STUDY ALR! :D

2010-05-21T20:54:00.002+08:00

today is a friday ! :D
haha.so sad.
class photo came out.
n im not in the pic D:
5 ppl not inside eh.
emo emo emo :(

n we had normal lessons today :(
totally no mood to study.
esp during amath :(
so tired :)

after school had cms too.
from 2.30-5.30pm
went through the test paper and practice some qns.
tchr told us to on the com to do research.
in the end most ppl were facebook-ing/photo booth-ing
then i at around 4pm+ head pain ._.
felt damn dizzy,bcos of the radiation i think.
so i slept for some time but wake up head still pain =.=

sigh.
met up with choir friends at arnd 6pm to go home tgr :)
they've elected the new coms.
wat.
the.
hell.
i got chosen as someone who's in charge of the choir blog ._.
...........................
is there even such position?! D:
y so random! D:
lololol o.o
n they've got a new list of which section u belong to.
I'M STILL IN SOPRANO ONEEEE :D :D :D
yay yay yay yay yay ! :D
soprano FTW! :D
haha.

bye :)

2010-05-19T20:27:00.003+08:00

today was boring.

had choir after school :(

meihui n i rushed back from city hall after eating with wongming,xiaoding n yuting :)

haiz.SAD AHHHHH!!!

dance for 3 long freaking hours,practicing for SYF opening thing.

i dont understand! we r a choir! y r we dancing o.O ?!

LOL.

anyways,WE R HAVING A CONCERT IN SEPTEMBER! YAY YAY YAY! :D

the last concert was when i was in sec 1 =.=

lalala ._.

sigh.

dunno wtr choir can still make it a not.

there's so few guys.

might as well form a girls choir.

o.o

ahh i miss those times ! :(

the huayi performance earlier this yr at esplanade was the last time ms yin conducted us.

clearly she has given up.

we've let her down too many times :(

i still remember when we sang dong fang zhi zhu she was holding back her tears.

n i nearly cried too.

sighh.i wrote her a letter that day :D

n we gave her some stuff.

she cried at the backstage.

miss yin!!! T-T

(credit spencer for the video.even though he made a lot of noise. =.= haha)

history repeats itself.

2010-05-18T21:59:00.007+08:00

yay :D
today's debrief was okay :D
didn't do very very badly :D
got b3 for emath,failed ss(expected)
egeog.i dunno.LOL.
2 qns not marked,one point not given the mark,overall marks counted wrongly.
but combine humans stil fail lah.
AND AND.
I GOT 78 FOR PHYSICS !!! A1 !!! :D :D
n my mistakes r stupid
wrong/never quote formula,units.
blablabla.
but im very contented alr laaaaaaahhhhhhhh.
haha.
special thanks to mr liow n vincent :D

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yays :D
hehe.
after school had chinese oral :(
jus bcos we talk too much.EP was the last class to take.
n i went to theee erm.huang zhu ren?
i read then stumble a bit.
after that shes like`你觉得自己读得怎么样？`
then i told her average.
so she went on telling me that i shldn't lose marks just because im nervous,chinese o lvls is in july,i should prepare myself n not make myself scared etc. lol.
who wants to lose marks man.
but how do u stop feeling nervous o.O
sigh D:

hmm.after oral went to parkway with yuting,bella n meihui.
went into subway after 1 yr of anti-ing subway.
:D
then went to borders to read books =.=
read some super funny books.LOL.
all humour stuff.n majority was quite sick ._.
read until....around 8pm or 8.30 pm before going home.
n here i am ! :D

uhh.some funny stuff :D

A guy walks into the psychiatrist wearing only plastic wraps for shorts.The shrink says` Well,i can clearly see you're nuts.`

A nude women looks into the bedroom mirror and says to herself "i look horrible,fat and ugly.Can you please pay me a compliment?" the husband replies,`well,your eyesight's excellent`

To Whom This May Concern:

I have a serious issue.Do you mind me asking you a favor? Here's my dilemma.I've been wanting this for a long time.I've been craving it for so long! I mean the memories of it going in hard and coming out soft-it's driving me insane! My tongue wrapped around it.Licking up the juices.My mouth waters due to the strong urges. I can't help moan at the thought of each bite,for the flavor is too great! I need it,can't you see? So can you please help me? Well,now that i've chimed my heart out,here's my question.

Can i have some gum?

(what you thinking =.=)

haha :D

bye :D

2010-05-17T19:48:00.002+08:00

it has been such a long time since i've cried so much. lol.
my results totally suck.
and i know i've put in all my efforts.
i will never improve.sigh.
my standard dropped so much compared to last year.
drastic change.
maybe due to this change,i couldn't adapt to where i stand in class.

i failed english.and other subjects r just c5s n c6s.
i'm tired.
i've tried.
i don't know wat else to do.
maybe i should just accept the fact that i dumb.
no matter how hard i try i wil just get this kind of sucky results.
i can never meet my own standards again.
i wonder why.
why is my life so screwed up.
for a period of time,i thought i've fixed it.
but now,i realised that all i did was just running away from it.

after chem debrief i went off to somewhere alone n cried
i've lost all my motives,all my strength to carry on.
i cried for a really long time.
until somehow xiaoding found me.
then we talked,n she comforted me.
everyone has been saying that im too negative abt things.
i don't call it negative.
i call it `expecting the worst`
i know i think too much.i give myself too much stress and pressure.
but ppl perform better under stress right?
why isn't it the same for me ._.
im worried for my results.
im worried abt everything.
n i can't seem to help it.

sigh.
i know everyone wants to slap me across the face or smth.
after school i broke down again.
cried in the middle of the pathway
n started ranting about my life.
plucking off grass n throwing it everywhere.
had too much of a impact, n up till now i still couldn't recover.
how i wish i can lose my memory,and start my life over again.
i don't want to be dependent on anyone.
and i want to stand on my own feet.

hi,i'm here with a dead soul.

2010-05-16T01:07:00.002+08:00

yesterday was such a beautiful day ! :D

nice weather :D

haha.

2010-05-14T23:13:00.003+08:00

COME.

TALK SOME SENSE INTO ME.

=.=

yay.

today bbq with xiaoding,meihui,yuting,natasha n caslyn ! :D

eh so fun xD

haha.

even though the amt of ppl a bit pathetic.

haha.

at first stayed in my room.

was doing girly stuffs :D

meihui,xiaoding n i were painting our nails.

caslyn freaking out abt AHEM on my com

yuting reading magazine.

then at arnd 5 pm went down for bbq.

spent dunno how long trying to start the fire.

had to call xiaoxin n shengzhi for help lol.

in the end this aunty helped us.haha.

and we playyy eaaatttt~

yuting fell into the pool.

LOL.

cos meihui pushed her.

haha.n she came out all wet :D :D :D

but lol.after we eat finish we all jumped into the pool.

AND AND AND.

WE STRIPPED.LOL!

its crazy i know.

i think we all just got high n stripped.(except natasha n xiaoding :O )

LOL.

hmm.at around 9.20 went back to my house n cleaned up :D

lent them my clothes,natasha n xiaoding went back first.followed by yuting n meihui

caslyn left at around 10.30pm?

haha. enjoyed chatting with her xD

YAY YAY

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY :D :D :D

haha.bye ^^

2010-05-13T23:10:00.005+08:00

-13 may-

i feel so sad today :(
sighhhhh.
had cms in the afternoon,after going out with sirui to plaza sing n 313.
bored D:
n my cms ca result is like,69.3333333333333333 =.=
while there r dunno how many ppl with 80+/90+
sigh.
nvms.lol.i nvr study/listen at all can get 69.333333333333333.
if i study maybe wil be a lot higher?
haha.if i don't quit,i wil start listening to every lesson from today onwards :D
oh yay.
lol.

at night went for mjc's choir concert at esplanade.
rushed home from cms n reached there at arnd 7pm.
their concert rocks lol!
i think its the best choir concert i've ever watched.
very entertaining :D
but sound quality i think vjc better.haha.
n i saw sheryl!! :D :D :D

gahh.had dinner after the concert at around 10 pm.
but now still a bit hungry T~T
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
very sad laaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh :( :( :(

photos :)

maybe i do,maybe i don't.what can i say when i don't even know it myself?

2010-05-13T01:08:00.003+08:00

mye is finally over.

initially before emath i was super high.

after emath a bit.....sad.

didn't do as well as expected i think.

matrix qns only solve,i didn't see the interpret part,so never do :(

ahh.waadddaiiiirrrberrr.

after exam went to vivo with bella,xiaoding,meihui n yuting :D

had lunch at swensen's .

THE WAITER IS DAMN NICE.

HE TREAT US $6 !!!

omg lol! he shoved the money into xiaoding's hand n hes lyk`it's on me`

LOL.

we all stared at him lyk this O.O!?

errr.after that actually wanted to go sentosa.

but the weather was unbearable.

so they came to my hse.

altogether we spammed stupid photos.

yuting n bella left early.(aww.so sad. u all don't get to eat wat jesslyn cook :D )

meihui n xiaoding stayed till 8 pm.

haha.

yay.friday they're coming over for bbq :D :D :D

n im dying of boredom ! :(

someone entertain me pls T~T

i seriously have nothing to do._.

whaaaaaaat shouuuuuuuulllllllldddddddd iiiiiiiiiiiiiii dooooooooooooooo.............

n tmr i hv to go back to sch for cms!!!! life is so unfair!!! :(

im so sad.

life is not good.its just black and white with no sense of hope :(

oh.i realise.my brain is not developed properly.

i can never tell a number pattern that is of a higher level.

NEVER.

unless those super obvious ones =.=

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

bye :(

2010-05-07T21:56:00.002+08:00

Hi WORLD ! :D
this week's exams r finally over!
i've been so used to sleeping at 1.30am+ n waking up at 5.30am everyday.
totally screwed up amath n ss today :(
somehow i couldn't even solve the first qns for amath
n it's like freaking easy.
i used the right method.
but somehow the ans is just not right.
so i crossed out the whoooollleeee thing n left it blank ._.
chem last qns too.correct method,wrong ans.
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?!!?!?!? :(

ss wassssss...lol. i only start studying for it during the break time.
and seriously,i was so demoralised abt amath that nothing could go into my head anymore.
i did not do like...5 qns for amath paper. n under the condition that i get everything correct for wat i've done.
the highest i can get is probably 45/80 =.=
but hello?
im jesslyn.
i don't get EVERYTHING right.

lol.anyways...
ss...writing crap all the way.the last qns on seq was damn joke.
i made up stuff on my own.explaining according to my own understanding.
LOL.
i think the teacher who mark my paper will burst out laughing.

hmm.haha
today quite okayy...
went to watch the back-up plan with xiaoding,bella,meihui n yuting :)
i think i was too stressed out or smth.
i cried while watching the trailers before the movie.
then i cried for 3/4 time of the movie and laughed for the rest.
lol.the movie is so sweeeeeeet! *squeals*

there was this part i was crying cos something sad happened
then the guy showed up at the girl's door.
the girl open n i was lyk(still crying) ` r they going to hv s*x?`
xiaoding they all ` no lah! where got blablablablablabla`
the next scene-they were lying on the bed =.=
n everyone burst out laughing.
HAHA.
SEE. i can predict :D

LOL.
after movie went to slack at kallang river there.
sat on the floor n was dying of boredom
then an army of ants attacked and ambushed me with their super sharp teeth n nearly bit me to death.
D:

gahh.im so tired now :(
i gonna spend my whole saturday sleeping.
my brain cells r on a strike.
poor brain cells,i know you have been badly treated by me :(

YAY 2 MORE EXAMS TO GO.
JYJYJYJY! :D

-i have two ways to go.both has equal good and bad points. but i choose to stay where i am.just like i always did.i don't want to step out of my own little bubble again.

2010-04-25T21:40:00.002+08:00

i think im too stressed.

im balding too! D:

everytime i tie my hair there will be strands of hair on the floor.

AND THEY USED TO BELONG TO MY HEAD.

n my hair is growing at such a slow rate.

angyuting told me to massage.

n i did.

but i see no signs of improving.

sigh.

i wan long n strong hair :(

lalala.

i started studying at around...5pm today.

i finally understood chapter 10.the front part.

but for solutions etc

i hv no idea at all :(

tried to do worksheet.

but tchr nvr go through some worksheets at all

how am i suppose to know how to do/the correct answer ? T~T

n chem test 2nd period tmr!!!

guess i hav to ask vincent tmr;he's somehow the answer key n solutions.

:D :D :D

lololol.

im bored :(

OH.

i saw on animal planet today that a whale's artery is so big that

a man can swim in it.

OMG.

whale artery = swimming pool?

then us = blood cells ?

our cells = ?

D: ?!

DD: ?!

DDD: ?!

send in your answers by the next 10 seconds and stand a chance to win a day in africa.

2010-04-24T23:26:00.003+08:00

mye's next week.

omg.

panic panic.

i'm gonna flunk math ! D:

i hv so much to learn that i don't even know where to start.

i think i should jus chill n start learning everything from the basic.

motivations! D:

heh.

angyuting is balding.

oh yay.

one day i wil see her bald :D

then she can go sit with joshua.

:D :D :D

hahhaahhhahahhahaha.

n she loves PH!!! :D

haha.

the class is so sick.

esp the girls.

omg D:

xiaoding's valley is a legend.

n i feel inferior D:

meihui is sick too.

during geog she sat at my place n wrote smth with permanent marker on MY table.

so ra :(

lol.i was bored so i've decided to blog

but im bored of blogging so...

BYE :D

pics from dunno wat choir concert at esplanade on 17th april!

2010-04-16T22:40:00.003+08:00

i'm so stressed.

i can't catch up with amath n mye is in 2 weeks times.

i dun understand y we hv to rush through everything.

y can't tchrs teach at a slower pace for us to understand better?

sigh.

kind of screwed up today's physics test.

got confused with the qns.

lol.

oh well.

there's chem supp class tmr.

right!

chem!

i hav totally no idea wat is bein taught for chem after ms ho left.

cos i wasnt listening.

=.=

some photos :D

bella n i :D
cupcake :D
vincent's grp's translucent outfit with a flap
my grp's undergarment advertisement

1 year,12 mths,365days,525,600 minutes i've been through.

all the tears shed;all the scars formed.

instead of making any effort to solve it,you avoided it.

the more i try,the further you go.

i've never wanted anything.

all i hoped was to clear this misunderstanding you have of me.

it's nothing to you but it means a lot to me.

i've never talk to you about it because i don't want to be a burden and i don't wish to make you feel guilty.

do you know?throughout this whole year.

i often cry on the way home,i have blamed myself for everything.

but right now.

i really wish to know.

what have i done wrong...?

i have no intentions to start with.

why did you hurt me that way?

it feels as though someone is cutting your unhealed wound open.

i hyperventilated.i was dying.

a part of me was screaming in pain.a part of me was crying out for help.

i hate you yet i want the best for you.

i thought you were different.

but you left me behind without saying anything

-no matter what happens,i won't wait for you.

cos `waiting for you is like waiting for rain in a drought,useless and disappointing.`

but you will be my first and last.

if i can say it 1 year later.

i can say the same thing after 3 years.

all the best in your life :)

2010-03-28T04:30:00.002+08:00

yay.finally updated my blog D:

choir camp was ... okay.

totally screwed up by that guy who acted to be not afraid of anything,during night walk scared like dunno wat liddat =.= tsktsk.

n that night. slept in 4cr's classroom.

keziah,bella,weishan n i shared 2 sleeping bags on the floor n it was super cold.

in the morning i was on the floor between 2 sleeping bags T~T.

sigh.lol.

shanghai trip is fun !!!!!!!!

omgss.

the first day visited zhu jia jiao(wateva the place is) dint rly get to shop,jus walk arnd,

took some pics.

nxt day had some physical training thing.

went to see the statues in the afternoon.

took a looooot of pics.

joy is such a good statue-seducer :DD

haha.at night partied with xiaoding,poop,joy,qianyun,claire,weifeng n singyee in xiaoding's room.

nxt day went to see the military weapons n went in to a submarine.

i dun find that xuxu jiaoguan shuai leh.

seriously.y so many ppl like him?!

esp poopeh !?!?!?! D:

nxt two days went on learning journeys to pearl's building n chen huang miao,

car factories n some weird place to pick strawberries n doing the hai bao(!?!?!)

gah.so sad :(

come back to sg need to worry abt hmwks.

im so dead !!! couldn't catch up in class;wanted to learn everything again in the holidays,

then i hvnt even finish my hmwks -.-

up till now i only did one of geog's mindmap.

nxt week still gt 2 tests.

wth.

sian....

2010-02-27T12:35:00.006+08:00

hello~

it has been a reeeaaallly tiring weeek.

omgs =.=

n i totally screwed up physics,a math.

got like the lowest 10 in the class for phy.

in the end i still prove myself that i was distracted by THAT day.

didn't upload any photos for a super long time.

shall update now,haha :)

edgar!

lol.jefferson closing the windows during ipp exercice. :D

2010-02-19T22:18:00.002+08:00

cross country was *&*#(^%( today =.="

late + getting punished by standing for arnd 10 mins beside the lamppost jus bcos i nvr sit with the girls. ( i was sitting with fg)

seriously!!!

the sun nearly killed me!!!

i nearly turn into a piece of charcoal or smth.

arghhh...D:

but after that was fun xD

followed sirui n jiaying around,went to cheria's house with 1 big group of ppl(actually outside of her house) n tampines.

talk n walk n walk.

at last went to bugis,walk n talk n talk.

saw 1 rare species *grins*

hahah.

lolololol!!!

ok.

errrrrm.

overall veh satisfied today ^^

cos i've achieved smth that i always hope for.

hehe.

gt choir tmr ( T^T )

gtg~

bye~ :)

2010-02-14T19:18:00.002+08:00

finally a break :)

even though there's a lot of homeworks plus tests next week.

sighh...

anyways,

happy chinese new year~ n valentine's day ^^

haha.

i made cards for the class of FORTY TWO ppl till nearly 3am on friday.

n i had physics test on that day D:

lols.

soooo...handwriting abit the erm.ugly luh.

cos i was rushing o.O

but i did it with my heart k! haha :)

haha.our class's `i will ` video got 3rd! :D

ok lah.not bad.even though i expect a 2nd or smth.

majority of the ppl were lyk saying either number 2 or 7 will win.

welll..

lol.

we're the only sec 3 class that win smth k!

hahas :)

hmm...

nth else to blog abt alr.

i shall start ranting!! :DD

haiz.im so pissed with my tests.

every tests gt careless mistakes.

n it's super careless luh!

i rather not noe how to do than having this kind of mistakes ._.

gahhhh.

*^&%*(#^&#^$)(

but i'm quite happy for the fact that I GOT FIRST FOR GEOG IN CLASS

N I PASSED!!! 13/42 passed only can!

hahahahahaha.

i rock i rock :D

2010-02-07T18:41:00.000+08:00

thanks for screwing up my life

2010-01-29T21:03:00.003+08:00

yo! lol.

yays.i sacrificed my slacking time to blog :DD

ermermmmm.

school is like wth this 2 weeks.

this week 2 tests.next week FIVE!! DD:

n i totally screwed up bio.

seriouslyyy!!! there's this page jus because i think wayyyy too much.

a simple question i got wrong.

n bcos of that,whole page wrong.

._.

so i got 21/30.

seems ok.

but half of the class got higher than me D:

*heartbroken*

today amath quiz oso.

last qns everything correct except inequality sign.

damn careless can!!

stupid edgar 幸灾乐祸 made me emo one whole recess.

BUTBUT :DD

i own-ed in chinese ting xie today!!

muhahahahahahahaaha.

luckily i revised.

xDD

hmmhmmm...

regarding the video on total defence day's `i will...` .......

haha.today stayed back after school to rehearse.

the part which edgar n i have to act like siblings is damn funny.

howwwwwwwwwwever.

i totally lost my image today! T^T

too funny alr :DD

hahaha.hope our video'll be a sucess :DD

$100 lehh!!! :DD

this march sec 3 level trip to shanghai!!!

yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay !!! :DD

should be fun :DD

heh.

byebye~! ^^

Even the faintest memory of you hurts.

2010-01-14T22:19:00.002+08:00

hello!lols.

i finally updated my blog.

cos im in a good mood!! :DD!!

i finally figure everything abt e math.

i rock man!!!

hahahahha.

so got 成就感~~

sigh.

but i'm quite desperate for time.

mon assembly,tues end early but study in sch,wed cca,thurs o lvl chinese media thing(damn boring can),fri cca.

everyday reach home arnd 7pm++ alr lor.

wher gt that much time to study.

sumore nxt morning 5am need to wake up T^T

lols.btw tmr i think it's my turn to go to the dentist.

gahhhh~!!!!

everytime go dentist sure drill one tooth.

freaking pain.pain until i wish someone was there to kill me ._.

OMGGGGSSSS.

just don't drill my teeth/tooth again.please? ㅠ-ㅠ

2010-01-03T14:49:00.003+08:00

can't believe school is starting so soon.

another 2 months passed.

n it's already the offical start of another year.

going to sch tmr it's like going to battlefied again =.=

heard that sec 3 is even more stress than sec 2.

.................................haiz.y must make our lives so miserable?!?!

anyways,

goin to see the guys in long pants tmr.

haha.

i'll laugh.

haiz.

tmr sure gt spot check.

stupid.

n tmr end school at 4pm.

assembly sure `principal's address to the start of 2010`

then crap abt youth olympic games,some newspaper article.

every year same.

i think can memorise alr =.=

but.

tmr can sit at the top alr!!!!!

hahahaha.

i think i can't wake up in the morning tmr.

fortunately school starts at 8.30 :D

haha.

dunno tmr bring wat oso.

report book?

n good thing.

tmr no geography.

hahahha.

it'll totally make my day.

i shall continue doin my homework alr =.="

bye ~~~~~

2009-12-31T22:39:00.002+08:00

around 1 n a half hr to 2010.

and here i am,alone at home.

people downstairs partying like hell.

sigh.

so emo.

i dun think there's anything to celebrate abt a new year.

seriously.

people grow older,more stress, and it seems like,every effort u've put into 2009

have to start all over again in 2010.

went to watch avarta today.

so sweeeeeeeet~!!!

haha.

lol.

erm.

well.

im bored.

and

lonely.

T_T

2009-12-23T13:55:00.003+08:00

lost my phone.

yesterday.

for the first time in my life.

lol.

now all my contacts r gone.

oh well.

sigh

during this period

dun msg/call me.

im not planning to get that number back again.

cos im changing number soon.

starting a new plan i mean.

so.

until that day comes....

hmm..

sigh.

my contacts.

..... few hundreds gone.

how am i going to get all back???

and how am i going to tell everyone that i've changed my number?!!?!?!?

haiz.whatever.

2009-12-19T13:41:00.003+08:00

T.T

im depressed.

utterly depressed.

words can't express how depressed i feel.

im back in Sg.

but i will be leaving again.

YOU WAIT.

2009-12-14T01:00:00.002+08:00

sigh.suddenly so emo.
T-T

jus now went to sparex n fell asleep there until abt 1.30am,then i realise i have to come back.
jingzhi sleep until damn deep.most probably she's still sleeping now ._.

so i walked back alone.

it was daring right ?

walking alone on the streets of a foreign country during midnight.
haha
speaking of the truth,i was quite scared.
cos there were drunkards around.
and there were barely much people and cars around.
so it was pretty quiet.

i will be returning to singapore this friday.
sigh..

i will post pics tmr,it's 2.10am here alr .
bye :)

2009-12-12T23:14:00.002+08:00

haiz.

i think im drunk o.o

lol!

jus now zhu gege gave us 1/4 cup of beer =.=

lols.

first time i drink so much.

lol!

i think im drunk.

seriously.

seriouslyyyy!!

yo check it out yo.

2009-12-11T22:35:00.004+08:00

hello :D

blogging again.

erm.

today went to gyeongbokgoong.

and seoul folk museum.

followed by insadong and myeong dong.again.

nth much interesting things happened.

so i shall jus upload pics :D

my friends at coex :D(those i went to visit!)mr clocody
mrs head bigger than body
if only i am this tall.

last 2 lame photos :DD

2009-12-10T00:37:00.004+08:00

09/12/09

haha.

today so high~~~~

lols.morning went to that 冷冷清清的namsan park =.=

saw alot of elderly excercising.

lols.

hmm.after that went to hanok village,took photos then took a taxi to that cable car.

omgs.

the last time i was on a cable car was when i was......6??

i got so freaked out.

lols.

cos mainly i scared of height and dark.

so it's lyk,the combination of both.

omg.

dun dare to look down at all.

reached there,bought tickets.

surprisingly there were tons of jap people.

for some sch exchange programs or smth?

lols.

then erm.walked to that place with the..locks.

somehow.

i started crying unexpectedly.

emo =.=

haiz.

erm.theeeeennnnnnnnnnnnnn

went to teddy bear museum

molested all the old bears.*evil grin*hehehe

haha.

damn cute!!!

i bought 1 bear afterwards which officially became my boyfriend ystrd :DD

erm.took the lift up.

annnd.omgsssss

the scenary is.............

breathtaking?

omg.

i was on the verge to cry again.

erm.after that went to drink coffee.

apparently there's this jap couple,the girl is lyk confessing to that guy

said smth lyk`daisuki,daisuku,daisuki`

damn sweet!lol!

then we...went up again.

....

that was when i totally freaked out.

THAT

WAS

WHEN

FREAKED

OUT.

seriously.

high until dunno lyk wat.

UNTIL I COULDN'T STAY ANY LONGER.

so i went down.and went back.

.......

..............

.................

shall not elaborate more.

jus in case.

.............

u noe.

=.="

10/12/09

haiz.8 more days.

i dun wan to leave!

=.=

today went to coex.

.....daaaaamn boring...

went to coex aquarium to visit my frens today :D

i shall upload some pics of my friend ltr on.

only some.

since my camera is out of batt AGAIN.

uhh.erm

after that went to 노래방! :DD

fun :D

hehe.at night went to han river.

emo for arnd 1 hour.came back,drank coffee at somewhere nearby and..here i am! ;D

okay.erm.

time for some pics. :D

majority still in facebook.heee :D

with bears
he officially is my bf

emo draw circle -.- ...SHIXIAOXIN!LOL!THIS IS THE RIGHT WAY!
han river :D
my bestfriend
my pet
my car.

2009-12-09T01:01:00.003+08:00

spent the whole entire day at lotte world :D
yay!
it's daaaaaaamn nice
lols.
hmm.it's the first time in my life that i've tried ice skating too.
fell down dunno how many times =.=
nw my butt n my back hurts lyk hell.
i didnt fully master it,but...kind of....can skate for....30secs alone =.=
cos im scared to fall down.
lols.
after skating for a long time,my feet gt injured.
the skin came off.damn pain.
i can't even touch it.

lols.erm.
i saw alot of japanese highschool students today.
most probably for school excursions,since they were wearing sch unis.
lols.
hmmmmm.
haiyah.
play alot of stuff.
=.=
i uploaded the picsto facebook from jingzhi's phone.
cos 1stly,my cam no batt,2ndly,it'll take damn long =.=

hmm.
i dunno wats more interesting.
n it's late at night.
currently 2:09am
or shld i say early in the morning?
lols.
hmm.
gtg sleep i think =.=
bye~

2009-12-05T17:53:00.002+08:00

2nd day in korea.

lols.yesterday was such a long day =.=

reached incheon airport at arnd...9pm,korea time

took bus,then severe traffic jam =.=

ended up taking subway.

reached the place we stay,unpacked.

went out to buy some stuff at the minimarts nearby.

it was alr lyk,12.20am.

sleep until 9.15am today =.=

then went out,walk arnd,ate breakfast.

and it started snowing.

jingzhi damn happy uh?

lol.

erm.we went to apgujeong n walk arnd in the afternoon.

haha.i make my way back right

i dint die right.

=.=

i think im goin to dongdaemun with her later.

i wanna try drinking beer.

since there's no age thing in korea.

i want to see how it is like to be drunk.

i want to know if we really wil feel better after drinking.

cos i quite emo.

damn emo.

emo until like no mother =.=

....

so cold now.

my hands r freezing.

haiz.

HAAAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

communicating with the koreans.quite fun n irritating.

since my korean isnt that good =.=

but i think stil can make it lah.

unless the other party tok too chim n too fast.

lol.bye~im goin there le i think.

maybe i'll online ltr =)

2009-12-03T18:47:00.002+08:00

yo!long time no see!

=.=

yays.

my flight is tmr. =D

flying off at 1010. =/

at night 8.55pm(korea time)then reach.

lols.D:

i wil be gone for 2 weeks.

and,i am still goin alone with my friend.

not on tour.

=.=

haiz.

parents damn worried.

cos 2 young girls.

haiz.

wat if i can't make it back?

wat if i got sold out or beaten to death =.=

wat if...i died.

o.o

will anyone be sad?

lols.i think everyone's happier if im gone.

=.=

lols.n i dun think anyone wan to sell me off.

i 不值钱 =.=

lols.

.....

haiz.

i will miss you all.

jus pray hard i can survive.

i dun mind me dying actually,live so long for wat =.=

jus take care of my parents for me.

n burn more things for me T-T

thanks you thank you.

thank you very much.

sigh.

im hungry.

bye~

人既然活着，就要坚强，现实与梦想永远划着一道难以逾越的沟壑，使其那些带着淡淡美丽回忆的碎片，总能在不经意间会慢慢爬上心头……但是勇敢却会一直陪伴左右，支撑着每一个即将倒下去的瞬间，教会我们寻找那道绚丽的曙光

2009-11-29T01:57:00.002+08:00

never allow yourself to be emotionally attached to anyone.

you'll end up getting hurt.

2009-11-27T00:36:00.002+08:00

HE WANTS TO KILL ME !!

i knew it.i knew it.

hurt me and eventually kill me.

i knew it.

he.

wants.

me.

dead.

2009-11-22T14:43:00.002+08:00

deleted the post which im suppose to post -.-

lol. i spend dunno how long completing.

n it's super long.

haiz.

class chalet was fine but sian.

i stil prefer the one we had in june.

dint rly sleep much.

so i slept for 16 hours straight when i came home.

before that fell asleep in sx's house too -.-

lol.he got mad at me cos of mahjong.

lol.i first time play mah.

but after that played 21.

i consecutively gt 21 points for dunno how many times.

omg.

lol.even i feel freaked out.

n i earned 40 cents in all.

LOL.

btwbtw,

i got in 3ep.

3 EPPPP

the comb i wanted.

happy but. it's ep

haiz.

y??

uhh.

i rly no mood to continue posting alr.

i think i might abandon my blog soon T.T

oh yah.im very very thankful to weida.

lol!pei-ed me go chalet even though it's none of his business -.-

thanks alot!!!

lol!

n the stupid bai shaoxiang go post my pri sch pic on his blog.

wtf.

WTF.

-.-

....

but i cant stop ...haha.

i look much better now.

=DD.

lols.

bye~!

erm.wil be posting the pics to facebook i think.

2009-11-18T23:22:00.002+08:00

i finished my post today.(abt everything for the past few days)

but i think i'll only publish tmr?

right now i jus...

sigh.

i thought my dad was going to die.

he said he might not be able to make it through...

i was initially shocked n i can't rly accept that fact

that he might die.

then i started crying lyk hell.

regretting everything i've done and said to him.

i always take him for granted.

to us,parents r suppose to be there and never leave u right?

haiz.

doc said that he's fine now -.-

but im still scared.

lol.hvnt recover from the shock.

we only know how to cherish people when they're gone/might be gone.

really.a piece of advice.dun take anyone for granted.

u'll never noe when they might jus leave and never come back again..

2009-11-11T23:54:00.002+08:00

haha.

im so happy today!!

shall elaborate tmr

=))

hehe.

i love 6on'07!!

the best class! best classmates ever!

=DD

if oni i can go back to the past. =/

heh <33

2009-11-10T21:32:00.004+08:00

i tried editing my new blogskin

but it doesnt seem to work when i preview it.

haiz.

nvms =/

i shall keep trying.

lols. tmr 6onyx'07 class outing!!!!

=DD

not alot of ppl can make it D: but im still happy.

hehehe =DD

this friday! kmps alumni dinner!!

2pm's comback day!

a black friday!

and it has been 1 yr since our choir concert last yr!!

memorable huh.

haha.i went to watch my girlfriends an agent today.

actually wanted to watch jennifer's body.

but too bad it's nc 16

wellllll....

that movie's damn funny.

seriously.

............

im speechless again... o.o

nvms.i shall continue with what i was doing.

bye~ =)

2009-10-31T23:47:00.005+08:00

i thought i was going to be fine on the last day of school.

alot of my classmates cried and i didnt.

i thought i was going to walk out of the school like nothing happened.

in the end,somehow when almost everyone left

i cried.

my tears just fell uncontrollably.

i tried to restrain myself from crying but i just couldn't.

gladys was with me the whole way through.

we sat at the concourse at first.

but it started to rain heavily.

then it reminds me of the last time it actually rained that big.

coincidence huh?

i cried so much that my eyes were swollen.

it never seemed to stop.

...

stayed in school til 1.30pm when i decided to go off

waited for christy at bugis.

during the waiting time,my tears fell again.

my head hurts,my eyes hurts

n i had no appetite to eat anything even though i was hungry

i don't know y i was crying so much.

nothing is going through my head

all i noe is that im tired of being strong and wants a break down.

christy forced me to eat something

cos she scared i'll faint.

we sat down at some random place

n i started asking her about things which i've been confused about.

i asked her y i was crying so hard.

she told me that there's too much reasons.

i asked her y i felt so hurt even though im letting go

she told me bcos we human r selfish.

maybe...?

i shouldn't be crying.

i always think that when u really cares for someone,all u will ever want is for that person to be happy,because when they are,u'll be.

i went home and fell asleep.

woke up after 1 hour.

usually i'll feel better after i sleep.

but this time is different.

i started crying the moment i woke up.

i noe it's bad to have thoughts like that.

but at that point of time,i really really felt like dying.

i hope i can just faint and lost all my memories.

i didn't really eat for the whole entire day.

and i went to jingzhi's hse for a sleepover at night cos i quarreled with my mum.

came home today.

she started screaming at me and blaming me for everything when i just stepped into the house.

again.

in the end my parents agreed to have a divorce.

it's not just because of the quarrel that lead to it

ever since i was 4,my parents has been quarreling over me

my mum wanted to be harsh with me,my dad wanted to protect me

in the end they quarrel,they fight.

my dad always leave the house for a few days before coming back.

no matter how much i wanted to follow him

i couldn't.

my dad once told me that he doesn't want to lose my mum,neither does he want to lose me.

i felt so guilty.

i keep apologising to him bcos other than that i dont know wat else to do.

it's all my fault.

if i never exist,i wouldn't have brought all these problems to people around me.

i felt hopeless now.

i really don't know how to continue with my life anymore.

i can't stand it any further.

it's my fault.

everything is my fault.

i can't do anything to stop it.

im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry,im sorry.

i noe there's no use saying sorry..

but.

mummy,daddy,

im sorry...